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Tuesday, August 07, 2007
8/07/2007 09:31:00 PM
I've cried till I could cry no more
my life's so screwed, my eyes hurt like crasy, I've cried till I could cry no more. I dont wanna leave all of you, thinking about it just makes me feel so ugh. I cant even imagine how it'll be without all of you. I'm gonna go back to see the principal tomorrow): I really wanna meet up with all of you, I hope it wont be the last time though): I'm regretting whatever I've done, if I've never done all of that, maybe my life wont be so messed up as it is now, maybe I wouldn't have to drop out. but I dont see the point in regretting everything there is now, because there's nothing I can do to change it. it hurts so much to have to leave all of you, it hurts to have to go through this, idk how long more I can take it. life's so tough, its so hard trying to go through this. I have no idea how to make things better, everytime I try things always get worse. I dont know what to do now, wht's gonna happen to me now. people say that the good in life would come in just a matter of time, but how long have I been waiting, and still the good never shows. maybe life just ain't worth living anymore,
to ***;*******
ily babes, idk what I'll do without all of you, after what has happened recently with my friends, you guys have been there for me through out. just thinking of the times we had together makes me so darn sad, ******* I'm not gonna run with you next year anymore): there's still so many more good and bad time's I've yet to share with you, I cant believe I'll be leaving now. I dont care, we're gonna meet up. ily you tons babe, I'll visit whenever I can.
*** now that I'm leaving, I'll have no one to cry to, bitch with, whine to, slit with, laugh with, omggg, I cant even IMAGINE leaving you. I'm sorry, I know I promised you that I'll stay with you through out this four years, but now this happens. talking to you and ******* just now, made me cry so badly afterwards. what will I do without all of you, I dont care, we're gonna meet up, cause I'll die without all of you.
to the clique,
I'm sorry, I know we've fight recently, I know that whatever I've done has hurt you all. I know I've been a bitch, but I'm sorry, now that I've gotta leave, I cant help but cry and remember of all the times we've had, the fights and all. I know we never like the fights, but I cant help but realise that it has actually brought us closer together, I dont know about patching back together this time, but even if this might be the end of our friendship, I wanna let you all know, I love you guys okay, I'm sorry for everything.
& to you,
its thanks to you guys that I probably didnt go crasy(: ahaha, at least I know there's people I can go to, remember you said you'll lend me money if I ran away(: ahaha, I'll hold you to that!(: